New Years Resolutions.....

Well I was going to list out all of my supposed resolutions... key word: supposed, but I don't think I am anymore because I only have one resolution. Me and one of my good friends sat down to eat before going to see Avatar (which was amazing by the way) and we started talking about New Years resolutions. She told me her one and I began naming off a whole list of them, and at the end, after saying all of them, I looked at her and said I really don't know... My list: (everyone's normal list) Lose a little weight, be more adventurous, actually try at school, yada yada yada.... Well I got home and got in the bathtub (which is where I do my best thinking) and I thought about what my New Years Resolution could be. I wanted it to be something good, and something I need to do... So I text my friend and said, "I got it! I know what my new years resolution is going to be!" She text back, "What?" and this is exactly what I put, "to NEVER take my eyes off of God, to focus on Him and His will for me above everything else, and allow him to be MY god... The God of every detail in my life. The end." And that is it. That is my one resolution. I think that one resolution will make 2010 a great year and one to remember. 2010 will be a year of big decisions for me. I'll have to start applying to colleges(scary) and figure out exactly what I want to do. I know I want to move off somewhere. I just don't know exactly where. And honestly that scares me to death, the not knowing part. I just wish God would drop a list out of the sky saying you are going to college here, and you need to get this degree, and have everything mapped out for me... But it's not happening... And where would the fun be in that. But I know God will lead me exactly where I need to be... I'm extremely excited about this new year and I hope you are too! I think it will be a year of new beginnings, at least I hope so. And I leave you with this:

Philippians 3:13-14
:No, dear brothers and sisters, I am still not all I should be, but I am focusing all my energies on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I strain to reach the end of the race and receive the prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us up to heaven"

Let's look forward to what lies ahead this next year! This will be the last blog of 2009! So Happy New Years to everyone! :)

Your love is a remedy...

Your love is a remedy....


I got the new Switchfoot cd, Hello Hurricane, and it's surprisingly really good. (No offense to any Switchfoot fans) But I really like it, and my favorite song on that CD is most definitely Your Love Is a Song, so while I was listening to it I really started to listen to the lyrics. Two Words: SIMPLY AMAZING. Check 'em out:

"Your love is a symphony
all around me, running through me
Your love is a melody
underneath me, running to me

Your love is a song
Your love is my remedy
Your love is a song"

Some quick thoughts: (I promise I'll "attempt" to keep this one short.)
I'm so thankful I have a Savior who loves me THAT much, whose love surrounds me everywhere I am, even in my weak times. I am extremely thankful that His love is constantly running to me... yeah, if I was it, I would probably run away from me. (That's scary to think about, haha.) His love is always overwhelming to me. He amazes me by constantly revealing new aspects of His love for me. It makes me smile just thinking about it. Wow! But as I was listening to it, one line kept playing over and over in my head.... Your love is my remedy. His love is MY remedy... definition of remedy:
1. something that cures or relieves a disease or bodily disorder; a healing medicine, application, or treatment.
2. something that corrects or removes an evil of any kind.
His love heals me on a constant and consistent basis. It relieves me, and removes "evil". His love is what keeps me sane. His love lives inside of me, and do I do a good job of showing it's indescribable and unconditional nature to others? Absolutely Not! But I'm thankful for a God who loves me that much nonetheless. I'm thankful for a God whose love is indescribable, over reaching the realms of our minds and our descriptions by far. Just a thought! :) Thanks for reading! Hope everyone had a GREAT thanksgiving!

I Haven't Seen the Stars Lately

I haven't seen the stars lately. Not because they aren't there, but because I haven't taken the time to look. My life just seems to be moving faster and faster, when I really would love for it just to slow down. I was thinking last night about how much I love the stars.. I mean I absolutely love them. They're my favorite, yet I haven't taken the time to look at them. I haven't even paid attention to something I hold so dear just because I've been busy. That sounds like a horrible excuse to me. Well that just about describes my life lately. I haven't been paying attention to the things I love. And I'm just going to be honest, I haven't spent much time with my God lately. I used to LOVE to have my nightly talks with him, and to learn more and more about him everyday. I used to feel smitten when I would learn something new and exciting about Him that I didn't know. My date with God used to be my favorite part of the day. First, School started... and that led to homework. And then I started working more, and then I started going to devotions of some sort on almost every week night.. And when I got home I would just do my homework and go to bed. I thought that the devotions would make up for my personal time with God, and it didn't. Just like looking at a picture of the stars doesn't fulfill my desire to look at the stars. It's so different. I have discovered I need my one on one time. I have started having my dates with God again and let me tell you, There's nothing like it. Nothing can take the place of that time for me. I missed it so much. I also missed this, a lot, a whole lot. I miss blogging. I just haven't had time, or at least I tell myself that to make me feel better. Well, I'm just glad I can do this now, and get back into it. But I am starting this up again. I shall soon have some guest bloggers, and let me tell you they're good, very awesome. Some amazing friends of mine. Oh, and I wrote a guest blog for Jake Branham's The Journey Blog. Check it out, TheJourneyBlogs.blogspot.com. But anyways all this to say, Maybe I'm back into the swing of things. I hope so. Well leave some comments! :) Thanks for reading!! I love you guys.

LiveWithPassion :)

It's time for an awakening.

Hey guys! What's up? It's been a really really long time since I've done this! Believe me, I've really missed it. Well tomorrow is the first day of school, and honestly I'm absolutely dreading it but I know it'll be okay! This year, I'm ready to be the difference at county high, and I know I can do it. Well, not alone, but God and me. I used to think that God only used adults, so I would tell myself that I would make a change when I got older. Well now I know that that isn't true. And I have a thirst to be the change now. I know God can and will use me to do huge things at County High. I'm so ready this year to see an awakening at County High, for people to see God for who he really is. I'm ready for all the Christians to come together and be the change. I'm ready for us to fulfill our destiny that God has set out for us. I'm ready to see all the Christians to really act like Christians are supposed to act. To quit being hypocritical, gossipy, judgmental, etc. and to start showing people the love, hope, and peace Yahweh has given us. I'm so ready to see a huge change this year! I have committed to change myself this year. I have committed to love unconditionally. I have committed to quit being scared, scared of what people think, scared of the unknown, scared of letdowns. Why should I be afraid when I have the all powerful God on my side? I have decided to grasp the moment, and to live for now. Not live for yesterday. "I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way He Loves Us!" I think it's time to put our worship in motion and to live for god and god alone. I am committing to really being passionate about it this year. I'm ready to really live out my faith and show people my real identity, the living God. I seriously think God is going to show up at TCHS this year, if we let him. I want me and the other Christians to be salt and make people who see us thirsty for more of the living God. I want us to shine his light and let everyone see him for who he really is! I pray that God will use me and all the other christians in HUGE ways this year. I am so ready to seriously be the difference. I want people to look at me and God's other disciple and know that there is something different about us. And that difference is the hope God has given us. I am so ready to see a huge change this year. And I believe with God's help we can do it. I am ready to see Christians put their worship into motion and live it through their everyday lives. I think we can do it!!!! Are you with me?

How He Loves

Okay so just read these lyrics! My friend Luke showed me this awesome song. It's called How He Loves by John Mark Mcmillan

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

Yeah, He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves.

We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
So Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way…

He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves.

Well, I thought about You the day Stephen died,
And You met me between my breaking.
I know that I still love You, God, despite the agony.
...They want to tell me You're cruel,
But if Stephen could sing, he'd say it's not true, cause...

Cause He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us.
Whoa! how He loves us.
Whoa! how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves.

AMAZING! I just wanted you all to be blessed by these lyrics like I have! I'll blog more later. LOVE.

Do Not Be Afraid

What's up guys! Once again, I haven't wrote in a while. I just can't keep up with this thing. Let's see as of right now, I've been doing pretty good. I got to spend the whole day with my niece yesterday, which was great! But I just read my friend Luke's blog. It talks about how we should live in the moment, not the fear of the future or the memories of yesterday. SO TRUE. This might just be me but a lot of the time I feel like I'm just standing still in one spot watching everyone else running past me, trying my hardest to figure out where I am. I know that's extremely confusing but that's the best way to put it into words. I am ready to jump in the moment and live for what God put me in that specific moment for. Just wanted to say that. I really wanted to tell you guys about what God has been showing me lately. Well you know how in my last blog I told you how scared I was and I really didn't even know why. Well here's something weird, VBS started the day after I wrote that, and the theme: Don't be afraid. Well if that wasn't a God thing I don't know what was. The bible stories each night were about Moses. The first night was when God spoke to him through the burning bush and how scared he was. God told him that he needed to go rescue his people from the Pharaoh and lead them to the promise land. He told God that he was scared and that he didn't think he was the man for the job. Well that's exactly how I feel. Like I just think, Well God don't you think this is a pretty big thing, don't you need someone better than me, like a better, more committed person, someone who doesn't act like me. I just think, seriously God? that's a pretty important thing... and you're depending on me? Woah. I think that's what scares me. I think I am what scares me. It's not the task or God, but it's me. I know that I've got a whole lot of changing in store. And I know that God is preparing me for my task. That's what the waiting period is for, preparation and seeking. In order to do what God has told me to do, I must seek. Above all things, I must seek him and that is my preparation. But it scares me that I'm me. That this task is in my hands. That probably makes no sense to anyone else but that's the only way to explain it. But God kept telling me at VBS. Don't be afraid, I am ALWAYS with you. You aren't doing this alone. You are doing it with me. Do Not Be Afraid, I do what I say I do and I am who I say I am. TRUST ME on this one. So that's what I am going to do. I am going to trust. Please continue to pray for me. Thanks guys! Leave some comments.

Waiting

Okay, So let me just start out with this: These lyrics describe what I've been feeling lately.
hungry I come to You
for I know You satisfy
I am empty
but I know Your love does not run dry
and I wait
and I wait
so I wait for You
so I wait for You

chorus
I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for

broken I run to You
for Your arms are open wide
I am weary but I know Your touch restores my life
so I'll wait for You
so I'll wait for You

I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for
Oh, I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for

and I wait for you
and I wait for you
and I wait for you
and I wait

I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for
Oh, I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for

hungry I come to you,
for I know You satisfy

I'm about to really open up to yall. These last couple of weeks have scared me to death. I've been praying for God to begin to reveal his will to me, to begin to show me what I need to do. Well let's just say he's really answered this prayer. Over the last couple of weeks, He's been showing me bits and pieces of it, and, honestly it scares me to death. It just flat out scares me. Before this, I was scared because I had no idea what the future held for me. And now I'm scared and I know where I'm going and what I am supposed to be doing. I don't know where I stand anymore. I know this isn't making sense to anyone but I just need to let it out. Part of it, I think, is the waiting. The waiting scares me. I don't know what to do when I wait. I know I worship him and I know I love. But, I think, my problem is that I do NOT understand that waiting is a part of it. It's part of everything and it's definitely part of his will for me. The way I live my life and the way everything in my life is makes me feel like I always must be doing something. And not just something, but something big. But sometimes the waiting period is big. This period can be used to prepare us for the big thing we are waiting for. I just need to realize that. But it seriously scares me that I'm going to have to wait, and not just for a short period, but for a while. It scares me that I know what I need to do, and that I have to wait to do it. It really does scare me. I am just going to have to be preparing myself for these things he has revealed to me. I am going to have to really dig deep and get to know him from every angle. I am going to have to examine EVERY aspect of my life and make Christ the center of everything. I am going to have to set my priorities in the right order for the next couple of years while I am waiting. I am going to just have to be patient and persevere while I'm waiting. Whatever it takes, I am going to reveal this will. And as hard as it gets. I am going to wait and wait until I know the time comes for what needs to be done. Please pray for me, Pray for God to give me patience and the strength to persevere. Also just pray for me because I am in the middle of a spiritual battle because of this. God is telling me to go one way and the devil is trying with all his might to talk me out of it. Thanks so much guys! I love you all so much. I would absolutely love some comments, verses, opinions, thoughts, encouragement, anything. I just love to hear from yall. LOVE.

We're All In This Together

Okay guys, So today I was checking out the Hillsong United App on my phone and I saw this video and wanted to share it. Seriously, please take the time to watch it. It's so true and has to do with what I've been blogging about lately. And I just wanted to say don't rob people of their blessings. When you walk or drive by the homeless person, stop, but don't put yourself in danger ever. But help them out. Bless them in some way. You could be the blessing that God gives them and If you don't do what God is telling you to by helping the helpless and showing them the love of "our God" not the idols of this world. Show them how God has healed us and brought us out of our pit and he can bring them out of their pit too. Don't rob them of their blessing from God. But here we go - WATCH THIS!!!

It's time...

Okay, this one may be a little controversial, but I feel it needs to be said. Let me open up with a quote that was said in our sunday school yesterday, "The church is a hospital for sinners, not a museum for saints." -Abigail Van Buren. That's how it is supposed to be. In this post, I am not ragging on one church in general, when I say church, I mean the body of Christ as a whole. Syd commented on my last post and told me that some Christians have been calling themselves "Followers of Christ" now instead of Christians, because of what the term has come to mean. That just makes me sad. It does. What I mean by this the term Christian has come to relate to things like, "Discrimination, Predjudice, Hate, Judgement, etc." when it should be, "Love, acceptance, selfless, etc." I say our generation redefines the term to what it was meant to be. And don't get me wrong, not all Christians are what I consider the modern definition of the term. I know many who are the second definition of the term. And they are some of the most respectable, loving, and kind people I know. But, I also know many people who, if someone with let's say has tattoos and earrings walked into the church, would probably assume certain things about the person because of their outer appearance. I hate to break it to them but some of the most godly people I know have tattoos. And I also hate to break it to them, that we are all not "cookie-cutter" christians. We are not perfect. That our sin is just as bad as their sin. I sometimes think that some of us look at their sin differently than ours just because of their appearance when in God's eyes it's all the same. It just doesn't make since to me. We are all sinners who gather together for the common purpose, of worshipping and learning about our creator and savior. We need to become just what that quote said a hospital for sinners. We need to show them our doctor and who heals us and makes us new. We need to love ALL sinners. Not just the ones that our like us and look "good". We are called, as Christians, to love everyone. That everyone includes: People who are a different color than us, those with tattoos, gays, lesbians, gothics, muslims, druggies, alcoholics, chain smokers, etc. EVERYONE. We need to show them who healed us and saved us from who we used to be. We must love them in everything we do. I think it's time that us christians step up to the plate and become low to make God high. It's time we stop making everything about us, and everything about him. It's time. BE THE DIFFERENCE. I love you all very much. I'd really love some opinions and comments on this one please. Do something for someone today. LOVE.

I'm ready.

I was just talking to Hannah a couple of minutes ago about some things I just needed to get off my chest. And she said I'm going to go home and read to get my mind off of all this and I said well I'm going home and blog about it. haha. That's how I get stuff off my chest. We were just talking about guys. No one specific, just guys, in general. The statement I made was well right now I'm just dating Jesus. I know that sounds kind of weird. But it's what I have decided to do until God decides to put someone "special" in my life. I'm going to get to know Jesus and who he really is. I want to know him on a deeper level. I want to run to him before anyone else. I want him to wrap me in his arms. I know this is what I need to be doing. So I'm off to go and have a little alone time with my date, who also happens to be my savior. Ironic. Just kidding! haha. But seriously I want to fall in love with Jesus. I know we've all heard this quote at one point or another but I'm about to break it out again. I want to be so close to my savior that a guy has to go through him to get to me. Like I said I'm ready to actually make it my identity like I said in my last blog. I'm ready to actually be what the word "christian" was meant to be not what the meaning has become. Our church has started a new series about being the difference. I want to be the difference. I'm ready to love. I'm ready to accept who and how I am and just focus on others and not myself. I'm ready to just show God's love through me. I'm ready to be the light in the darkness. I am ready. I am ready for a change. I am ready for God's will and purpose in my life. I am ready to fall in love...... with God. I am ready to be the change and stop relying on others to be it. I am ready to start helping those around me and being who I was called to be. I am ready to gain the confidence I've always wanted, because now I know exactly who I am. I'm his. I am ready to stop treating people the way the deserve to be treated and start loving them the way jesus does. I'm ready to stop being judgemental. I'm ready to stop being predjudice. I'm ready to stop being a procrastinator. I'm ready to work on my flaws. I'm ready for God to carve me into who he wants me to be. I know it may hurt but in the end I will be more beautiful than ever. I know I'm ready. So whose with me? Comments please. 

His Forever

Hey guys! I definitely haven't done this in a while but I'm back! Haha! I am so glad to be out of school, you just don't even know! This summer has already been pretty fun. I went to the beach the first week I got out of school which was extremely fun. Other than that I've just been hanging out with some friends. Lately, God has been dealing with me in many different ways. He has been teaching me to depend on him for everything. He has shown me that there is not a formula for having the perfect life, that to have the life he wants me to have I must be close to him and listen to him and obey him, because he is not the god of formulas but he is a relational god. He does things through relationships, The relationship between us and him, between each other, and between his creations and us. I thank him that he is a god of relationships and not formulas. But what he has really shown me is nothing I can do can knock me out of his hand. I am his forever. There's a new hillsong united song called yours forever that is a great reminder of this. No matter who we are, what we have done, what we will do, or even what church we go to, we are his FOREVER. That's hard for me to understand because our relationships with others don't work this way, sometimes we have to watch what we say or do so we don't make the other person mad. And then we they do get mad they just kick you out of their life for a while. But God will never do that, we are always his and he is always ours. We are his. We are his. I praise God for that because we are always HIS. Sometimes we feel like  certain people in our life, don't love us or don't care. I know i have been feeling like this a lot lately, but when we feel like this we have to remember who we belong to. Remember God is the God of relationships, he desires to be whatever we need, if we need a friend, he is our friend, and if we need a parent, he can be our parent, if we need love he gives us that love, if we just need to feel like someone cares he wraps us in his arms. Even when we feel the most unlovable, when we feel like no one can or does love us, God does. No matter what we have done, no matter how far we have strayed, no matter who loves us, no matter if were the best or the worse, the lowest or the highest, We belong to God. We are his FOREVER and not only that but he loves us. He care deeply. He wants us to lay our burdens upon him. We are his beloved and we will always be his beloved. I think we should begin to make that are identity. We should always remind ourselves that constantly. When you begin to have a bad day or feel unlovable, remind yourself that you are his! I love you guys very much and I hope everyone has a great weekend! I love getting comments to let me know that people are actually reading this so leave some! LOVE!

Changes

Hey guys! It feels like it has been a while when I guess it really hasn't.  Anyways, I'm sorry but I probably won't be blogging much this month. I have weddings, graduations, and a vacation this month so I have every weekend filled. YUCK! Okay anyways I went to Jana's Graduation today. Oh my goodness, that is some boring stuff right there. I played games on my phone the whole time. I just can't believe she's old enough to graduate college, much less have a baby! Gosh! Like Luke said in his last blog, It seems like all the sudden all these MASSIVE changes are coming about in people's lives. From Graduating to getting married to having babies. I mean it is hard to believe that in a little over a month my big sister will have a baby and I will be Aunt KK. Strange. In less than a month, Luke who is one of the greatest people ever will live what about 4 hours away. Who's going to take me to awesome concerts and make me laugh so hard that.... well not going to share that one with the world, but Luke you know what I'm talking about. It's crazy to think about. It feels like I'm just standing still watching life pass by. If that makes any sense whatsoever. It seems like just yesterday I was booger fishing in the puddles with my sister, or when Jana got her first car and I thought she was the coolest person ever, or when MaryBeth graduated High School. Gosh time definitely flys. But as I look back there are so many things I wish I could change and so many things I wish I could prevent and so many things I wish I could just live through one more time because it was such an awesome moment. I love change but then again I hate it. Somethings I want to stay exactly the same forever just because I like it that way and I am comfortable. But right now I am ready for these huge changes. I am so ready for God to take me out of my comfort zone and to gain the gutsy faith I have been praying for. I have this feeling that God has HUGE plans for every single person who willingly accepts his changes and lets him work in there life even when it isn't nessecarily comfortable. Have you ever pray for God's will to be done in your life? When you did, did you really mean it? I always pray that but honestly most of the time I haven't meant it. I think we all know in the back of our minds that sometimes God's will can put us in harm's way or take us somewhere "uncomfortable" and sometimes it can even mean risking everything. And knowing that we ask God for his will to be done NO MATTER WHAT but we do not mean it. As humans we naturally want to stay comfortable. I remember reading something on my friend Jake's facebook and it said, " We always ask for God to rain down on us, but when he does we become wet, sticky, and uncomfortable. So we run under shelter so we won't feel the rain anymore." Well I am sooooo ready to be uncomfortable! I am ready for this change. I am ready for God's will to be done in my life, because I know his plans our bigger and much better than my own. So I want God to rain on me, and I not only want to be able to stand there and not run away because it's uncomfortable, I want to DANCE IN THE RAIN! I want God to lead me through the rain until I see the rainbow he wants to give me..... Sorry I'm getting a little carried away! But I have this desire to be uncomfortable now. I have this desire to be rained on by God's spirit! So how are you taking these changes in your life? Are you avoiding being rained on at all costs possible just so you will be comfortable! If so I invite you to come dancing with me in the rain! I love you all very much! I hope you all have a wonderfully superb week!

Is God leading your dance?

Hello my friends!!! Well here we go with another "me spilling my dramatic life to the readers" blog. Once again I am going to apologize in advance. A second ago I sat down on my bed to talk to God before I read his word and I prayed, "Lord, tonight I have open ears and an open heart. Show me what I need to see. You know how I struggle with this whole waiting for the boyfriend thing, God. Please show me that you have it under control. If this desire I have is not from you, please, crush it and if it is subside it until the right time." Okay anyways, Funny thing, he answered my prayer again. He showed what I needed to be shown. And don't get me wrong when I prayed for him to take that weird mood I was in away, He did, but I will always have the desire for a boyfriend, but sometimes it can be stronger than others. Okay so I open up my bible straight to Proverbs 4 and I began to read it. This is the verse that stood out: "My [daughter], hear me and accept these words. I have taught you the way of wisdom. I have led you in the paths of uprighteousness. (LISTEN TO ME BELOVED, GET THIS THROUGH YOUR HEAD) When you walk your step will not be hampered and IF you run you won't stumble. Take hold of my instructions. Guard it" which were verses 10-13. Okay so I'm the type of person who wishes that when I was born that God would just hand my parents a list to give me that said This is what you're going to do and this is where you are going to live and this is who you are going to marry. I know what's the fun in that, right? But I should praise God for giving us the freedom of choosing what we want to do: Follow him or do things our way. But I just need to come to realization that I'm not just going to be walking and an list with all the info of what I should do falls right out of the sky. I mean, I know we have the Bible, which is God's instruction book for our life but I mean I want to just know exactly  I need to do in list form. Okay I feel like this isn't making any since. Am I the only weird person like that? But God takes us on a journey to find each and every answer for our life and I think we learn stuff on the way. Like it says in those verses though God guides each one of us through our journeys. He makes sure that we do not stumble and if we begin to fall he catches us. So during our storms shouldn't we just trust that he knows what he is doing and why he is doing it and take his hand and dance with him in the rain. Okay so I just got this picture of a little girl taking her daddy's hand and standing on his feet and just letting him lead her through the dance. So why don't we do just that. He is reaching out to everyone so why don't we just take his hand and stand on his feet and let him lead us through the dance? Is it a trust issue? Is it a not knowing who he really is issue? I think that it is something different for each and everyone of us. So I think we should all begin to examine our lives and see who or what is leading you through your dance and if it not God, why? I know that was extremely scatter brained but that's me so I'm sorry!! Please leave comments, questions, opinions, oppositions, etc! I love you all very much! Hope everyone has an amazingly superb weekend! LOVE!

In my time.... Beloved

Okay Okay... So I'm about to lay everything out on the table. So I'm deeply sorry to whoever is reading this. I was just about to go to bed when I layed down at 8:40. Yes, I know it was early, but I was extremely tired. But I just began to pray and I got this random desire to read his word. Well first off let me tell you about my week. I've had one of those weeks. I have these random weeks where I look at my life and I'm like Man, look at you. You are so unorganized and a procrastinator and just plain out messed up. And then I look over to the perfect sitting beside me and they look like they have there life so perfect. You know those people who look like they have it all. They have brains, beauty, and a boyfriend. The three B's every girl wants. And I look at my life, and I'm like okay (I'm not trying to sound prideful in the least bit, so please don't take it that way) Brains, check. Beauty, ummm.... no. And Boyfriend, that's a negative. Anyways I just have these random weeks where I'm like okay well I want a boyfriend for so bad and I have been praying for one for the last two years, I guess I'm just going to be a nun for the rest of my life. Sorry I kind of got off on a tangent there but Tonight when I had that desire to read I prayed Help me get out of this stinkin mood!! I hate it. I seriously prayed that he would speak something to me that I desperately needed to here and guess what? He did just that. I turned to Ecclesiastes and I read the whole "There is a time for everything." passage. Well in chapter 3, verse 11 says He has made everything beautiful in his time. Well, that was one of the verses that stuck out to me. He basically was telling me, "Beloved I know you desire a relationship right now, but it is not the right time. Stop being so hormonal (for the lack of a better word) and just wait. And then I flipped to Psalms 130. And verse 5 says, " I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope." So He was like Beloved in this waiting period seek me more than ever, lean on me when you have your little moods, and most of all learn who I really am. Put your hope in me and my word. Believe I am what the bible says I am and believe I can and will do what my word says I do. And last, Remember that I love you and that you are my creation and created in my image, at that, so how could you be ugly. I made you how I wanted to make you, and I love you for it. So remember when you have those weeks that God loves you no matter what. He doesn't care if you have the "PERFECT" life. I hate to break it to you but no one does, even though it may look like it. Just be the best you can be and give God your everything. He will control the rest. I was talking to Hannah Phillips and I told her when I read Ecclesiastes 3:11 that my opinion is that God is getting that guy he set apart especially for me ready for me. Because he will have to be. It's going to be a while if he's trying to prepare him. I feel sorry for that guy. Anyways well Sorry about the whole life story here but just felt like writing it. Thanks for reading! I love you all! 

Setting God up to look like a Jerk

Hey guys!! What is up? I'm just at work and I'm reading this incredibly amazing book again! Gutsy Faith. Seriously, You need to read it if you haven't. It talks a lot about why God sometimes answers our prayers with a no, if in his word it says, Ask and you will recieve. And we take that out of context so often. When we our not in sync with God's will for us then we sometimes ask for things that will, lets say, "hinder" that will. Sometimes what we ask for something that seems "godly" to us, when in reality it is not in God's plan for us. And God's plans are much bigger and better than our own plans. So when we try to take control and ask for things that our not for us then it is better that he says no. The book states it as this: We set God up to be a jerk. We aren't in the word and we aren't praying and listening to His voice like we should be, but we as humans always want something. So we end up asking for something that "looks to us" like we need it, either just to have if a physical object or sometimes we think that we need it in order to become closer to God, when it is not in his will for us to have it. So God says no because he knows that what we ask for is not best for it. So when we ask, and ask, and ask and do not recieve we say "ummm God, what's going on here? I asked and I am not receiving" and if your like me (and this may only be me) you tend to get mad at God. So do you understand how we set God up to look like a jerk when, really, he is helping us by doing what is best for us. Jeff Edmonson shows this principle in Gutsy Faith by talking about 2 Corinthians 12, when Paul stated that he asked God to remove a "thorn in his flesh" (which we have no idea what it was) 3 times. God responded no each time. Paul could NOT understand why God would leave something in his life that was distracting him so much from his God. I can understand exactly where he was coming from. Think about it, Put yourself in his shoes. Imagine asking over and over for something, and not just asking but passionately asking for something and hearing God's voice saying No, Beloved. And then asking one last time, weeping with your face to the ground, begging for only one thing for God to take away this certain "thorn in your flesh" and then hearing God quietly whisper no. As we keep reading we realize that God wanted Paul to overcome this certain thing. We see in verse 9 that God tells Paul, "My Grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in your weakness." Paul finally realizes that this "thorn" is not going to be removed and say, "For the sake of Christ, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, he is still Strong." God was showing off his power through Paul's weakness. So, God was using something that Paul saw as a distraction to better his kingdom. So In asking for God to remove this "thorn" Paul unintentionally was asking for something that was not in his will, therefore God answered his prayer with a no. Do you understand what I am saying at all. I mean, I feel like I am not getting my point across. But I just have never thought of this before. I have always been one to "Set God up to look like a Jerk." I ask for something without knowing if that is truly what God wants me to have. I really hope you all are getting this. God is so amazing how he brings everything together so well. This all leads back to seeking God. When we seek God He brings everything together. He WILL begin to reveal his will for us when we read his word, Pray, and altogether seek him. And when he does we will know what to ask for, and it will be in accordance to God's will so we will recieve it. Well I really hope I even somewhat got my point across. I would love to know any thoughts, opinions, comments, oppositions, verses, etc. I love you all very much and thanks so much for taking the time to read this. I hope you have many superb adventures this upcoming week. If you do I would absolutely love to know about them. Once again, I truly love yall! 

Quote of the day: (or lyrics: these come from Beautiful King by Danyew)

Beautiful King, 
has anybody seen 
Your glory unfold? 
You walk up to me 
with sparks in Your eyes, 
You brighten my world 

And You'll always be my only One. 
You're the only God I'll ever love 
because... 

Every word that you say 
wields the beauty of angels. 
Every smile is arrayed 
with a joy like wedding bells. 
It's my heart you hold. 
Of your mystery I sing. 
I will stand and behold 
my Beautiful King 

Love of my soul, 
with power untold, 
who is like you? 
Lamb that was slain, 
my God, You reign 
in victory and truth. 

And I'll follow You all my days. 
And I'll give to You every single thing. 
I hand everything over... 

Every word that You say 
wields the beauty of angels. 
Every smile is arrayed 
with a joy like wedding bells. 
It's my heart You hold. 
Of your mystery i sing. 
I will stand and behold 
my Beautiful King. 

And time flies by. 
We're not standing alone. 
Every word that You say, 
Father, let it be known. 
I fall so fast 
without You by my side. 
Let Your beauty be seen 

Let Your glory unfold 
Let Your glory unfold 
Let Your glory unfold 
Let Your glory unfold 

Every word that You say 
wields the beauty of angels. 
'Cause every smile is arrayed 
with a joy like wedding bells. 
It's my heart You hold. 
Of Your mystery i sing. 
I will stand and behold 
my Beautiful King!!! 

'Cause every word that you say 
wields the beauty of angels. 
'Cause every smile is arrayed 
with a joy like wedding bells. 
It's my heart You hold. 
Of your mystery i sing. 
I will stand and behold 
my Beautiful King."

Something New (Tim Brantley)

This is going to be an incredibly short post. I haven't posted in a while but Monday night I went to the Josh Kelley, Ryan Cabrera, Tim Brantley, and Brandon Whyde concert and it was amazing. To see some pictures of us at the concert go to thelwproject.blogspot.com. Oh the soundtrack to my week has been Tim Brantley's Goldtop Heights... Let me just tell you one word: Amazing! Check it out!
Here's some of his lyrics: This is his song "Something New"
Summertime was the end of the line
I'd had enough id done my time
i was looking out for something new yeah
and something looked a lot like you
i had plans to hide my blues away
behind castle walls or roam like a stray
and i knew you but i didn’t know you were the truth oh
and 1 step my knees are getting weak yeah
and 2 steps come on and do it for me oh
and 3 steps i gotta make it to you
but the 4th step never happened you were right on cue
when you asked me what i wanted and i said its you its you
fall and winter kinda knocked me dow
n kinda grew me up back in my old town
and what i needed never let me go
when i pulled so hard i want you to know
that telling you wasnt the easiest thing (big shot city boys)
made you tired of that scene
and i knew you but i didn't know you well
with you uptown girls you know its hard to tell
well a saxaphone was sounding off at three am
playing hard luck climbing lovers limbs
oh and i could almost see the future in your stare
oh the delicate moves of a love affair
oh you made me a believer i could kiss your feet
lay my coat down for you as you cross the street
is there anyone else in the world but you.

Anyways I'll post another one of my extremely long post sometime this weekend hopefully. I've just been extremely busy. But I hope you guys have an amazingly superb weekend. I love you all!

Intimacy with the Father

Hey guys!! How's everyone doing? Well, if you're in High School you should be doing awesome, considering the fact that it is SPRING BREAK! Except, if like Kadileigh, you have to work... YUCK! Anyways, It's been a while since I've blogged, like Luke (thelwproject.blogspot.com, check it out!) mentioned I was kind of having a dry spell. But anyways, I am reading this book called Gutsy Faith. It is really good! You should all read it. But in this book it talks about the intimacy between Jesus and God and what their relationship was like. When I came into work this morning I was reading it and it was talking about the story when Jesus feeds the crowd. (Matthew 14:13-23) Before I get to far off on that let me tell you about my thoughts in the past week or so. I have been thinking about our intimacy with God. I have been examining my relationship with him to see what it really looked like. As I have been seeking God, he has been revealing to me the importance of seeking him. And first of all one of the most important things about that is we can see who he really is, his real characteristics, and fall more and more deeply in love with him each day. So, we were all created in his image, right? So, we also need to seek him to find out exactly who we are, or who we are supposed to be. We all know we are supposed to be christ-like, but how can we do that if we don't know what Christ is really like? So when we seek him, we will find him, he will reveal himself to you, and then we will begin to see who we are really supposed to be? Okay, anyways, back to the feeding the crowd thing. When Jesus came to the shore, there was thousands of people standing, waiting for their last hope, Jesus, to come down and just touch them. People who had diseases, people who were possessed, prostitutes, robbers, lawyers, doctors, anyone who needed healing, whether physical or mental, were gathered there just to be touched or looked upon by a man they had never met, just heard of, that could supposedly heal them, their last hope. Jesus got off the boat and scripture says that "He saw a great crowd, and he had compassion on them and healed their sick" Jesus was probably tired and hungry, he had been at sea all day with the disciples, but instead of just walking past them to go eat or sleep, he had compassion on every single one of them and healed every single one of them. The author in the book Gutsy Faith tells you to imagine it, Jesus walking around saying a prayer for every person who needed healing and God granting it. When Jesus was done the disciples came to him and said send the crowds away, the day is over and we are starving. Let's go eat and Jesus said all of these people are hungry too, feed them. The disciple said we only have five loaves of bread and two fish, there is no way this can feed over five thousand people. Jesus told them to pass it out and said a prayer to God and blessed it. Okay i'm saying all that to get to this: Jesus had such an intimacy with God that he knew EXACTLY what he should do, and when and where he should do it. He knew what he needed to ask God for and when to ask for it. You know when you and your friend have been friends for an extremely long time and yall have become extremely close, You begin to know what the your friend is thinking, you can look at them and know exactly what is going through their mind, well that's how Jesus and God were. Jesus spent so much time with God that he knew what he was thinking. He became so intimately connected with God that he knew what he was thinking every minute so he did everything God asked him to do because he knew why God wanted that. So, this is my question: How intimate are you with God? I know that I am not as intimate as I should be at all, but I deeply desire the intimacy of the relationship the father and the son had. Anyways, that's whats been on my mind lately. Any thoughts, opinions, verses, oppositions, comments, leave them. I love reading you guys' thoughts. I hope you all have many adventures to tell me about this week!!! I love you all! HAPPY SPRING BREAK!

Giving Everything

Hey guys! What's up? Well I've had a pretty awesome week seeking God. He is really starting to reveal to me who he really is and it is pretty amazing! I can't wait to dig even deeper! Well I have two different things on my mind and the first one is very questionable. This is merely an opinion, and it is not scripturally based. It is not a truth. The only reason I put this on here is so I can learn more about it from you guys and so I could learn about some scripture dealing with this. For the past couple of days I've seen the phrase "God will not give you something you cannot handle." Or something to that extent. Well I've just been thinking about it and I think I disagree with that. I think God brings us to things that we can't handle so we get to our breaking point, and so we HAVE to lean on him and depend him. I think it is through things we cannot handle that God breaks down our pride and we realize that we can't do it by ourselves so we run to him. I would love to know everyone's opinion on this and I would love to know about some scripture involving this, please. Let me know if you have some. Okay second thing is giving God EVERYTHING, giving him every area of our life. I mean letting him see the good, the bad, and the ugly. I was just thinking about this today. I think when we begin to seek him and see who he really is we will be able to give up things. As we get to know him we will let go of areas we have been holding onto. I like to think about it like this: Before you let someone into your life, you have to get to know them and see what they are really like. Before you tell your friends your deepest darkest secrets there has to be trust there. And most of the time we don't trust someone we don't know with our most precious things. So when we don't know who God really is and when we aren't "friends" with him then it is going to be hard to give up our most precious item: Our life.  I don't know if that makes sense to anyone but it does to me. As I have been seeking God this week, he has really been softening me. He has begun to break down many walls in my life. He has shown me things I have been doing that I shouldn't be doing. He has really begun to reveal himself, though. And let me tell you HE IS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING! So yall I'm serious, If you don't know exactly who God is begin to seek him, and you WILL find him. So Hannah I hope you're happy it was pretty short today. Short. Simple. To the point, Just for you! I hope you guys have an awesome week seeking God. I love you all very much! And I hope you have many awesomely superb adventures this week. LOVE.

Beloved, Seek me and you will find me

Hello! Hello! Back again for another installment of TheKadileighSeibertExperience. I have a lot on my mind and once again am very scatter brained so try to stick with me. Normal Day. Very Normal. Extremely Normal. Too normal. Yea, the last two days have just been normal, yuck! I hate normal! I want an action packed day, with God speaking to me throughout the day with some revelation, something I need to here. Something exciting, not normal, that I haven't seen in him before. Something new. But it hasn't been that way, until tonight. As I was laying in my room I was thinking God where have you been? My life has felt empty almost like you are not here. And I kept getting the same thing. Beloved, seek me and you will find me. Well let's back track a little bit, For the last couple of weeks I have been complaining about how awful school has become. I have been pretty angered by my age. I know that makes no sense but I don't fit in so well with people my age. I know it's hard to believe (just kidding) but I am definitely, I guess what you could call an outcast. All of my close friends are older than me and I kept saying I wish I was older. I have been getting really annoyed by the people, in general, not anyone specific at our school. It's like everyone is so incredibly immature and they have no perception of morals whatsoever. God, over the last couple of weeks, has told me that Beloved, You are where you are for a reason, You are the age you are for a reason, and while you are at this place where it seems like I am not at, I need you to seek me even harder. I need you to push through your annoyance and I need you to show love to these people like they have never seen before and I need you to show them a BIG love, my love. I need YOU to show ME to these people. I am going to use you beloved like you have been praying. I am going to use you. I have chosen you to be at this certain school at this certain time for a certain purpose. And right now, All I need is for you to seek me with all that you have. So back to the seeking God thing, I was talking to him today saying Where have you been? Why haven't I been able to feel your presence like I normally do. And this is my answer for every question I asked. Beloved, Seek me and you will find me. I am here,  I just need you to look.  And that was it, God told me something right there that related to many aspects of my life. It relates to my situation at County High. God said it seems like I'm not there, but I am, I just need you and all of my other Children to look. Remember I am with you 24/7. I have a home right inside your heart. When I seem distant, I am here and You are still MINE, beloved. You are still my child whom I love. But I never let go, I turn my back on you, but you do to me. You let go, you turn your back and walk away, and beloved it  hurts. I am going to tell the truth here, I am the kind of person where I will be all pumped about my bible one week and the next I will be "Too busy" to read it. And the past couple of days I have been telling myself I have been too busy. Which is definitely an excuse. I think by God giving me the feeling of him being distanced he was saying You let go and it's hurting. But seek me and you will find me. I have realized that sometimes we have to sacrifice a night with friends to SEEK HIM, and I mean truly seek him, to fall on our faces and cry out and seek him. He has told me, "Beloved, You asked me to use you in great ways, and I have something awesome set out for you, but you are going to have to seek me, and once you truly seek me you will fall in love with who I am. I will be all you need. You will yearn for me. At the sound of my name, You will yearn. You will be anxious to share my love with others, but the thing is you will have to truly devote yourself into seeking me." So here I am beginning what I see as a new journey. I am off to seek God and his great love so I can share it with who needs it. 

Please begin to pray for me and our schools in general as I feel a calling to make a change. I am part of a chosen generation. And not only high schools, guys. Colleges too, but we have to start the change within ouselves first. Let's begin to seek God deep daily. Let's begin to put him and his will first. The change has to start with ourselves. Let's begin to show the people who God really is and what we, as christians, really should look like. Let's change the view of the church. I am ready to see a revolution. 

Quote of the Day: "But you are the generation chosen by God, chosen for the high calling of his work, chosen to be holy people, God's instruments to do his work and speak out for him, to tell others of the night-and-day difference he made for you - from nothing to something, from rejected to accepted." -1st Peter 2:9-10 (The Message)

.... and it all starts by seeking him. 

I love you all very much and here's to another superb adventure of Kadileigh Seibert. 

I wish you the best week seeking God. 

I would love to know your opinion, thoughts, comments, oppositions, etc. 

Delighting yourself in the Lord (Being Moldable)

Hey guys!

I hope you had a great weekend! I know I did. Okay, I'm just going to get straight to the point on this one. Isn't it weird how God works things out just perfectly. Today, My friend Katelynn asked me to go with her to another church with her to hear a friend play guitar but I had this weird feeling that I shouldn't. There was something going to be said at LOHBC that I needed to here and I could sense it. I waited and I waited and then Kristine Burns got up and sang the song: I am yours by Misty Edwards and it really spoke to me. I'll put the lyrics at the end of this blog and then Mrs. Mary Anne (I don't know how to spell her name, Sorry :) and anyways she sang the Potter's Hands. And Chris was talking about how we, as christians should be moldable. We should let God shape us into who we should be. Are you who you are supposed to be in Christ? Have you been doing what is needed to glorify me? Have you let me mold you? were all the questions running through my head and most of the answers were no. I am a very strong willed person if you don't know me and I have found out that it is very hard for me to give everything up to God to mold. And I think we should give every aspect of our life up to God for him to mold. I like to think of it this way, It's like God is sculpting us each into this beautiful sculpture but he gives us the choice of what he can sculpt. We begin as one big chunk of clay and then we give up one area at a time and he does what he needs to them and as he cuts what is not needed out sometimes it hurts. When we give up every "square inch" of our lives to God then we will end up being a beautiful sculpture but when we don't we still have those big chunks of gray in our lives. I don't know if that made any sense to you guys at all but that's what helps me understand it. A lot of the time I give up an area to him and then I yank it back when it begins to hurt.  But I should be able to trust him with it. Like brother Dan said on a comment in my last entry God has never let us down before. And so why would he on this? So I should know that though it hurts now that there will be an awesome outcome. Anyways, Kim Porter, an awesome lady at our church comes on stage and said that the original hebrew word for delight means being moldable. BAM! Kim you were telling that to me. That's why I was supposed to be at our church tonight. I have been debating on what the word delight means for a while now. So that's it. That what God wants me and everyone else to be. MOLDABLE, which means to be formed into a different shape. Don't you think God is trying to shape us into being more like him. God is trying to shape us all as christians to be more loving, unprejudiced, nonhypocritical christians. Anyways God was telling me Child, we are going to have to work on a few things (not a few, a lot) and it's going to hurt a little, but you are going to have to give them completely to me before I can help you. So I just thought I'd share that.  

Here's those lyrics to I AM YOURS:

Though I sleep, My heart is awake. 

Though it's night, on you I wait.

It's been a long night, and I am weary.

It's been a long night, and I am hungry.

So I'll wait in the stillness again. 

I'll wait in the quiet again.

For when I heard your voice

when you said my name

When I heard your voice

My heart it yearned.

In the middle of the night

In the middle of the night

In the middle of the night

My heart it yearns.

Though you're far away, still I'm here to say

I am yours. I am yours.

And when you feel so far away, still I'm here to say

I am yours. I am yours. 

And I pay my vows, no turning around

I burn the bridges that can't be found.

For when I heard your voice

And you said my name

When I heard your voice

My heart it yearned for you.

Oh and I wanted to ask everyone (I want all of my 3 followers haha and anyone else to read this to answer) a question. Just leave a comment to answer please.

               What is God to you?

TRUST continued... Casting your burdens on God.

Hey guys! Today is been pretty good although the rain has made me incredibly tired all day long. I've been cleaning my room and studying for a history test so I have just got a chance to get on here. I think I have become addicted to this blogging thing (it's definitely my escape). But anyways, In church today I looked down at my bible and it's one of the ones that has the devotions in it and one of the devotions had the lyrics to "What a Friend We Have In Jesus." I have always sang that in church and I'm not a big hymn fan so honestly I never have really gotten into that song, but I actually read the lyrics today and they definitely amazed me:

1. 
   
2. What a friend we have in Jesus,
   All our sins and griefs to bear!
   What a privilege to carry
   Everything to God in prayer!
   Oh, what peace we often forfeit,
   Oh, what needless pain we bear,
   All because we do not carry
   Everything to God in prayer!
3. Have we trials and temptations?
   Is there trouble anywhere?
   We should never be discouraged—
   Take it to the Lord in prayer.
   Can we find a friend so faithful,
   Who will all our sorrows share?
   Jesus knows our every weakness;
   Take it to the Lord in prayer.

Okay so the line that really stuck out to me was O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear, all because we do not carry everything to God in prayer. How true is that! I mean, I don't know about yall but I know I do not carry EVERYTHING to God in prayer. Sometimes I think Oh that problems to small for him to care about, When it's not! God cares about ALL our problems, even the small ones. So why do we deal with all this "Needless Pain" and why do we "often forfeit our peace"? Once again I believe it may be a trust thing or the lack thereof. Sometimes I think we do not truly believe with our hearts. I think we believe in our heads, that God can handle because we can see all the hints of his power. But do we really believe with our whole hearts? God said if only you had the faith of a mustard seed (which is the size of the tip of a ballpoint pen) you could move a mountain .WOW! It is crazy how I, as a redeemed child of God, am so faithless. I mean God is suppose to be our sanctuary (the place where we run and hide for safety). Think about it, When you were a kid, there was one adult who you trusted, whether it be your mom, dad, grandmother, grandfather, or even someone else. But we trusted them with our "problems". When we fell off our bikes and scraped our knees, We would run to that trusted adult and tell them to kiss it and make it better, and we truly believed that by them kissing it it would miraculously get better. Well shouldn't we be like that with God. When we have problems, Shouldn't we automatically run to him before anyone else and give it to him and tell him to "kiss it and make it better" and shouldn't we believe that just because we are giving it to God that it will miraculously get better and it will because the pain will be lifted from us. God will take it. With me, it's not that i think God "can't" handle it, it's that I think he "won't" handle it. I think oh he has bigger and better things to deal with than me! Well let me tell you, THAT IS NOT THE CASE! 1st Peter 5:7 says "Cast all your burdens on him because he cares for you deeply." And notice it said ALL. Not just some, or the most important, or only the big ones, but ALL. Anyways, I am getting extremely tired, so I'm about to hit the bed. Leave comments, Guys. Thoughts, Opinions, Oppositions, Anything, I would like to know what you're thinking. :) Have a great rest of the week! I love you all. I'm going to leave you with this quote: "Live careless before God because He is most careful with you."

TRUST

I do not know where to start today. I am as scatter brained as ever. Let's just say today has NOT been the best day. Well, School was okay (I mean it was school what else can I say), but it wasn't an abnormally bad day or anything. But it all went downhill when Mom told me Jana was having a couple's shower and If you know me then you know I freak out and worry about these small things. I was like OH MY GOSH, I have to find a date asap. No offense Hannah, but I'm kind of over bringing you as my date to everything, haha. So I texted Hannah and I was like name some people I could invite. She named off a short list of the few close friends of ours that our guys, and I just sat there saying," Too awkward, I'm sure his girlfriend would just love that, he lives in Ohio (yes Jake I am talking about you), ummm.. I'm sure he wouldn't go for that..... etc." So I went the list of the guys I knew in my mind and I realized I don't know any. haha. Just kidding, the few I know are taken, wouldn't like me, or something else. But to make a long story short I began to worry! And worry eats at you and eats at you. It consumes your mind. That's all I could think about this afternoon. I realized I was becoming impatient and jumping the gun for something I had asked God to provide to me. When in his word, He tells me it's all in my time, Good timing, just be patient, beloved. I know he whispers this to me everyday when I pray this. But if you also know me then you know that I am definitely not a patient person. I want things when I ask for just like I want them. But as I was freaking out, I decided to get on here and read some of my friend's blogs and that's when I went to Jake's page. The title was DO NOT WORRY! I was like okay so this must be speaking to me, I started reading and BOOM! God said what is your issue beloved? You are a risen person. I have showed you my power and glory. I have resurected you  and lifted you up from what you used to be. I conquered death. When you asked for a friends I sent not only one but many great ones to you, And you still don't think I can provide you with someone? If only you had the faith of a mustard seed. Ouch, that hurt. How dumb am I to not believe that my savior and deliverer, that my daddy who loves me, that my true friend who sticks closer than a brother, that my shield and my sanctuary, isn't going to give me (his untrusting servant) the desires of my heart? I am his child and he loves me, He will give me someone, but all in good timing. God keeps whispering to me Beloved, Be patient and watchful, but do not worry and definitely do not get impatient and find someone on your own. Just wait. THANK YOU GOD for being my forgiving, loving daddy. I love you so much. Sorry about such a long story, but God has just told me to Trust him. So I guess that sums up everything. Have a great day tomorrow. I love you all. 

Quote of the day:

             "Your mercy found me upon the broken road, And lifted me beyond my failing, Into your glory, My sin and shame dissolved, And now forever yours I'll stand, in love never to end, to call you more than Lord, Glorious Friend. So I throw my life upon all that you are because I know that you gave it all for me. And when all else fades, My soul will dance with you where the love lasts forever."

                    -Where The Love Lasts Forever, Hillsong United

God can speak through anything.

Hey guys! I got back from the beach today around 5! And as soon as I got home I went to church and then to eat with some friends. I got home around 8:30 and tried to go to bed and that didn't work out so well, so this is where I ended up. Let's see, I had a lot of fun at the beach but I'm glad to be back in my own bed. I got some really cute clothes and stuff while down there. On the way back, I learned a little something. God can use anything to speak to us and get our attention about something. He has been trying to tell me something for so long but I just haven't been recognizing the signs. Today it finally got through to me. God used a secular song to speak to me. God doesn't just use christian stuff to tell us things, he also uses worldly things. God can use people, music, lyrics, art, scenery, or anything just to get our attention about something. We pray about something and then we complain that God hasn't showed us an answer to this prayer. Well most of the times he is telling us the answer, We just aren't being patient or listening and looking out for this answer. Sometimes, We just have to take a moment out of our busy lives to just stop and listen and look at the things around us. And even if we don't God can show us through things we do in our everyday routines. We can see something on the way to school or work we haven't noticed before or listen to a certain song you listen to all the time and here God saying something through it that you have never thought of or paid attention to before. I just am glad and I think it is absolutely amazing that God goes through so much just to answer are "small" and "big" prayers. But anyways, Just though I'd share that with you guys. I would LOVE to know what you think about my blog so leave some comments. So here's a funny story in The Superb Adventures of Kadileigh Seibert: On the way to the beach there was a fence with horses and cows in it and then there was one of those bulls with the hump on its back and my sister said, "Is that a half bull, half cow? I didn't know they could do that." It was pretty funny though. I had a pretty frightening tale on Friday, but I'm not going to put it on here, so if you want to know just ask me. But that's going to be it for today, so Ta-Da! I'll probably write something on here tomorrow if I learn anything or if anything interestingly superb happens (which it probably won't). Anyways, HAVE AN AMAZINGLY SUPERB WEEK! I HOPE YOU HAVE MANY ADVENTURES OF YOUR OWN THIS WEEK! LOVE .

Springtime and the beauty of God

Hey guys! I'm just sitting here at work so I thought I might blog. Tomorrow I am leaving to go to the beach for a very needed vacation and let me tell you I am incredibly excited! I love to just walk on the beach and just see God's beauty shining right in front of me. Everytime I go it's like I get a renewed awe of God. It just shows me how powerful, yet how gentle he is. You know I just find it so awesome that God gives us small glimpses of his beauty here on Earth everyday. Everywhere we go we see them. The flowers, clouds, sunset, the sweet smell of spring, and the music around us all remind me of just how beautiful he is. I am getting so excited just talking about it. He is an awesome God, isn't he? Well, Tonight I'm going to church and I'm pretty excited about that. Church at LOHBC has been awesome lately. We have been worshipping with everything we have, which I still don't believe is good enough for him, but he accepts it anyways. After that, I have to go home and get packed and then study for a chemistry test! Fun Fun! (sarcasm, isn't it great!) This is completely off subject but when I walked out of school today I wanted to jump up and down, because it actually felt like spring! I love spring! It was warm and it smelled like pollen, and the sky's were this gorgeous shade of blue that only appears in the spring time with those big fluff pillowy clouds, and driving down the road I saw all the flowers blooming! Oh how I love spring! I can't wait until it's here for good with no more cold weather. Anyways, I better get back to work so here's to another blog on TheKadileighSeibertExperience, another superb adventure of Kadileigh Seibert. Thankfully there has been no frightening tales yet but this week is yet to be over. So Hope you guys have an awesome rest of the day/week. I love you all and thanks for taking the time to read this.

Quote of the Day:
"You're inches from my fingertips
I've come as close as I can get
I'm reaching but the rest is up to you...
Cause I don't ever wanna miss
Being here with you like this
I'm trying but it's all that I can do
I'm reaching but the rest is up to you..."
-Jason Reeves "Reaching"

Leave some comments and let me know what you think! :)

First Timer!

Okay so I am a first time blogger, so I already am apologizing if this is boring! But, let's see I decided to make this blog to have something to do and, like most people I know, I kind of want to get off of facebook and transfer to this. :) Well I guess I start getting on here and telling the events of the day. I want to put up a different quote everyday (according to what I feel like). And most likely I'll be uploading videos everyone in a while. I have some awesome videos from this concert I went to last weekend that I'm going to put up so be waiting for that. Today, was somewhat uneventful. I mean I don't know how I'm going to keep this blog about the adventures of Kadileigh Seibert going when I'm having no adventures. So let's hope my life gets a little more busy. I had to work today, that was boring as always. But I guess instead of talking about what happened today I can talk about what God has been doing in my life lately.  I'm sorry if any of you have read the ring of fire because basically this is a repeat. Lately, God has been showing me just who he is. He has shown me how he is the ULTIMATE HEALER, not only the healer to big medical problems (which he can be), but he is the healer to our small problems also such as heartache, loneliness, being unloved, being friendless, etc. God is the glue that pieces our broken hearts back together, the lover of the unlovable, the father to the fatherless, the rest to the weary, the giver to the poor, the friend to the friendless, creator of beauty, comforter to the lonely, and all around he is love. He shows love to every feeling we feel. And most of the time we take for granted that all of those things live in us, if we are saved. God lives in each one of us and is right here with us 24/7. I just find that amazing for some reason. And the other night me and some friends went to a concert at workplay theatre, which is sort of like a bar but not really, but one of the singers (Tyrone Wells) was a christian and he got out and sang a song called "When all is said and done" and you could tell God was in there. So it just kind of taught me that God is everywhere not just in the "good, christian atmospheres". He is ALWAYS with me. But that will be all of "The Superb Adventures of Kadileigh Seibert" Please leave some comments and tell me what you think! :p

I love you all! 

Quote of the Day: Actually most will be song lyrics but here they are 

                     "This will be the day that you take your eyes off the ground, out of the blue, and see                        that someone is looking right back at you. Maybe that someone is me. Maybe it's                          meant to be.  Lovers. Stangers. Sometimes bombs fall quietly. Maybe it's                                          chemistry. Maybe it's hard to see that someone is the right one. Maybe that                                    someone is me. "