Beloved, Seek me and you will find me

Hello! Hello! Back again for another installment of TheKadileighSeibertExperience. I have a lot on my mind and once again am very scatter brained so try to stick with me. Normal Day. Very Normal. Extremely Normal. Too normal. Yea, the last two days have just been normal, yuck! I hate normal! I want an action packed day, with God speaking to me throughout the day with some revelation, something I need to here. Something exciting, not normal, that I haven't seen in him before. Something new. But it hasn't been that way, until tonight. As I was laying in my room I was thinking God where have you been? My life has felt empty almost like you are not here. And I kept getting the same thing. Beloved, seek me and you will find me. Well let's back track a little bit, For the last couple of weeks I have been complaining about how awful school has become. I have been pretty angered by my age. I know that makes no sense but I don't fit in so well with people my age. I know it's hard to believe (just kidding) but I am definitely, I guess what you could call an outcast. All of my close friends are older than me and I kept saying I wish I was older. I have been getting really annoyed by the people, in general, not anyone specific at our school. It's like everyone is so incredibly immature and they have no perception of morals whatsoever. God, over the last couple of weeks, has told me that Beloved, You are where you are for a reason, You are the age you are for a reason, and while you are at this place where it seems like I am not at, I need you to seek me even harder. I need you to push through your annoyance and I need you to show love to these people like they have never seen before and I need you to show them a BIG love, my love. I need YOU to show ME to these people. I am going to use you beloved like you have been praying. I am going to use you. I have chosen you to be at this certain school at this certain time for a certain purpose. And right now, All I need is for you to seek me with all that you have. So back to the seeking God thing, I was talking to him today saying Where have you been? Why haven't I been able to feel your presence like I normally do. And this is my answer for every question I asked. Beloved, Seek me and you will find me. I am here,  I just need you to look.  And that was it, God told me something right there that related to many aspects of my life. It relates to my situation at County High. God said it seems like I'm not there, but I am, I just need you and all of my other Children to look. Remember I am with you 24/7. I have a home right inside your heart. When I seem distant, I am here and You are still MINE, beloved. You are still my child whom I love. But I never let go, I turn my back on you, but you do to me. You let go, you turn your back and walk away, and beloved it  hurts. I am going to tell the truth here, I am the kind of person where I will be all pumped about my bible one week and the next I will be "Too busy" to read it. And the past couple of days I have been telling myself I have been too busy. Which is definitely an excuse. I think by God giving me the feeling of him being distanced he was saying You let go and it's hurting. But seek me and you will find me. I have realized that sometimes we have to sacrifice a night with friends to SEEK HIM, and I mean truly seek him, to fall on our faces and cry out and seek him. He has told me, "Beloved, You asked me to use you in great ways, and I have something awesome set out for you, but you are going to have to seek me, and once you truly seek me you will fall in love with who I am. I will be all you need. You will yearn for me. At the sound of my name, You will yearn. You will be anxious to share my love with others, but the thing is you will have to truly devote yourself into seeking me." So here I am beginning what I see as a new journey. I am off to seek God and his great love so I can share it with who needs it. 

Please begin to pray for me and our schools in general as I feel a calling to make a change. I am part of a chosen generation. And not only high schools, guys. Colleges too, but we have to start the change within ouselves first. Let's begin to seek God deep daily. Let's begin to put him and his will first. The change has to start with ourselves. Let's begin to show the people who God really is and what we, as christians, really should look like. Let's change the view of the church. I am ready to see a revolution. 

Quote of the Day: "But you are the generation chosen by God, chosen for the high calling of his work, chosen to be holy people, God's instruments to do his work and speak out for him, to tell others of the night-and-day difference he made for you - from nothing to something, from rejected to accepted." -1st Peter 2:9-10 (The Message)

.... and it all starts by seeking him. 

I love you all very much and here's to another superb adventure of Kadileigh Seibert. 

I wish you the best week seeking God. 

I would love to know your opinion, thoughts, comments, oppositions, etc. 

Delighting yourself in the Lord (Being Moldable)

Hey guys!

I hope you had a great weekend! I know I did. Okay, I'm just going to get straight to the point on this one. Isn't it weird how God works things out just perfectly. Today, My friend Katelynn asked me to go with her to another church with her to hear a friend play guitar but I had this weird feeling that I shouldn't. There was something going to be said at LOHBC that I needed to here and I could sense it. I waited and I waited and then Kristine Burns got up and sang the song: I am yours by Misty Edwards and it really spoke to me. I'll put the lyrics at the end of this blog and then Mrs. Mary Anne (I don't know how to spell her name, Sorry :) and anyways she sang the Potter's Hands. And Chris was talking about how we, as christians should be moldable. We should let God shape us into who we should be. Are you who you are supposed to be in Christ? Have you been doing what is needed to glorify me? Have you let me mold you? were all the questions running through my head and most of the answers were no. I am a very strong willed person if you don't know me and I have found out that it is very hard for me to give everything up to God to mold. And I think we should give every aspect of our life up to God for him to mold. I like to think of it this way, It's like God is sculpting us each into this beautiful sculpture but he gives us the choice of what he can sculpt. We begin as one big chunk of clay and then we give up one area at a time and he does what he needs to them and as he cuts what is not needed out sometimes it hurts. When we give up every "square inch" of our lives to God then we will end up being a beautiful sculpture but when we don't we still have those big chunks of gray in our lives. I don't know if that made any sense to you guys at all but that's what helps me understand it. A lot of the time I give up an area to him and then I yank it back when it begins to hurt.  But I should be able to trust him with it. Like brother Dan said on a comment in my last entry God has never let us down before. And so why would he on this? So I should know that though it hurts now that there will be an awesome outcome. Anyways, Kim Porter, an awesome lady at our church comes on stage and said that the original hebrew word for delight means being moldable. BAM! Kim you were telling that to me. That's why I was supposed to be at our church tonight. I have been debating on what the word delight means for a while now. So that's it. That what God wants me and everyone else to be. MOLDABLE, which means to be formed into a different shape. Don't you think God is trying to shape us into being more like him. God is trying to shape us all as christians to be more loving, unprejudiced, nonhypocritical christians. Anyways God was telling me Child, we are going to have to work on a few things (not a few, a lot) and it's going to hurt a little, but you are going to have to give them completely to me before I can help you. So I just thought I'd share that.  

Here's those lyrics to I AM YOURS:

Though I sleep, My heart is awake. 

Though it's night, on you I wait.

It's been a long night, and I am weary.

It's been a long night, and I am hungry.

So I'll wait in the stillness again. 

I'll wait in the quiet again.

For when I heard your voice

when you said my name

When I heard your voice

My heart it yearned.

In the middle of the night

In the middle of the night

In the middle of the night

My heart it yearns.

Though you're far away, still I'm here to say

I am yours. I am yours.

And when you feel so far away, still I'm here to say

I am yours. I am yours. 

And I pay my vows, no turning around

I burn the bridges that can't be found.

For when I heard your voice

And you said my name

When I heard your voice

My heart it yearned for you.

Oh and I wanted to ask everyone (I want all of my 3 followers haha and anyone else to read this to answer) a question. Just leave a comment to answer please.

               What is God to you?

TRUST continued... Casting your burdens on God.

Hey guys! Today is been pretty good although the rain has made me incredibly tired all day long. I've been cleaning my room and studying for a history test so I have just got a chance to get on here. I think I have become addicted to this blogging thing (it's definitely my escape). But anyways, In church today I looked down at my bible and it's one of the ones that has the devotions in it and one of the devotions had the lyrics to "What a Friend We Have In Jesus." I have always sang that in church and I'm not a big hymn fan so honestly I never have really gotten into that song, but I actually read the lyrics today and they definitely amazed me:

1. 
   
2. What a friend we have in Jesus,
   All our sins and griefs to bear!
   What a privilege to carry
   Everything to God in prayer!
   Oh, what peace we often forfeit,
   Oh, what needless pain we bear,
   All because we do not carry
   Everything to God in prayer!
3. Have we trials and temptations?
   Is there trouble anywhere?
   We should never be discouraged—
   Take it to the Lord in prayer.
   Can we find a friend so faithful,
   Who will all our sorrows share?
   Jesus knows our every weakness;
   Take it to the Lord in prayer.

Okay so the line that really stuck out to me was O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear, all because we do not carry everything to God in prayer. How true is that! I mean, I don't know about yall but I know I do not carry EVERYTHING to God in prayer. Sometimes I think Oh that problems to small for him to care about, When it's not! God cares about ALL our problems, even the small ones. So why do we deal with all this "Needless Pain" and why do we "often forfeit our peace"? Once again I believe it may be a trust thing or the lack thereof. Sometimes I think we do not truly believe with our hearts. I think we believe in our heads, that God can handle because we can see all the hints of his power. But do we really believe with our whole hearts? God said if only you had the faith of a mustard seed (which is the size of the tip of a ballpoint pen) you could move a mountain .WOW! It is crazy how I, as a redeemed child of God, am so faithless. I mean God is suppose to be our sanctuary (the place where we run and hide for safety). Think about it, When you were a kid, there was one adult who you trusted, whether it be your mom, dad, grandmother, grandfather, or even someone else. But we trusted them with our "problems". When we fell off our bikes and scraped our knees, We would run to that trusted adult and tell them to kiss it and make it better, and we truly believed that by them kissing it it would miraculously get better. Well shouldn't we be like that with God. When we have problems, Shouldn't we automatically run to him before anyone else and give it to him and tell him to "kiss it and make it better" and shouldn't we believe that just because we are giving it to God that it will miraculously get better and it will because the pain will be lifted from us. God will take it. With me, it's not that i think God "can't" handle it, it's that I think he "won't" handle it. I think oh he has bigger and better things to deal with than me! Well let me tell you, THAT IS NOT THE CASE! 1st Peter 5:7 says "Cast all your burdens on him because he cares for you deeply." And notice it said ALL. Not just some, or the most important, or only the big ones, but ALL. Anyways, I am getting extremely tired, so I'm about to hit the bed. Leave comments, Guys. Thoughts, Opinions, Oppositions, Anything, I would like to know what you're thinking. :) Have a great rest of the week! I love you all. I'm going to leave you with this quote: "Live careless before God because He is most careful with you."

TRUST

I do not know where to start today. I am as scatter brained as ever. Let's just say today has NOT been the best day. Well, School was okay (I mean it was school what else can I say), but it wasn't an abnormally bad day or anything. But it all went downhill when Mom told me Jana was having a couple's shower and If you know me then you know I freak out and worry about these small things. I was like OH MY GOSH, I have to find a date asap. No offense Hannah, but I'm kind of over bringing you as my date to everything, haha. So I texted Hannah and I was like name some people I could invite. She named off a short list of the few close friends of ours that our guys, and I just sat there saying," Too awkward, I'm sure his girlfriend would just love that, he lives in Ohio (yes Jake I am talking about you), ummm.. I'm sure he wouldn't go for that..... etc." So I went the list of the guys I knew in my mind and I realized I don't know any. haha. Just kidding, the few I know are taken, wouldn't like me, or something else. But to make a long story short I began to worry! And worry eats at you and eats at you. It consumes your mind. That's all I could think about this afternoon. I realized I was becoming impatient and jumping the gun for something I had asked God to provide to me. When in his word, He tells me it's all in my time, Good timing, just be patient, beloved. I know he whispers this to me everyday when I pray this. But if you also know me then you know that I am definitely not a patient person. I want things when I ask for just like I want them. But as I was freaking out, I decided to get on here and read some of my friend's blogs and that's when I went to Jake's page. The title was DO NOT WORRY! I was like okay so this must be speaking to me, I started reading and BOOM! God said what is your issue beloved? You are a risen person. I have showed you my power and glory. I have resurected you  and lifted you up from what you used to be. I conquered death. When you asked for a friends I sent not only one but many great ones to you, And you still don't think I can provide you with someone? If only you had the faith of a mustard seed. Ouch, that hurt. How dumb am I to not believe that my savior and deliverer, that my daddy who loves me, that my true friend who sticks closer than a brother, that my shield and my sanctuary, isn't going to give me (his untrusting servant) the desires of my heart? I am his child and he loves me, He will give me someone, but all in good timing. God keeps whispering to me Beloved, Be patient and watchful, but do not worry and definitely do not get impatient and find someone on your own. Just wait. THANK YOU GOD for being my forgiving, loving daddy. I love you so much. Sorry about such a long story, but God has just told me to Trust him. So I guess that sums up everything. Have a great day tomorrow. I love you all. 

Quote of the day:

             "Your mercy found me upon the broken road, And lifted me beyond my failing, Into your glory, My sin and shame dissolved, And now forever yours I'll stand, in love never to end, to call you more than Lord, Glorious Friend. So I throw my life upon all that you are because I know that you gave it all for me. And when all else fades, My soul will dance with you where the love lasts forever."

                    -Where The Love Lasts Forever, Hillsong United

God can speak through anything.

Hey guys! I got back from the beach today around 5! And as soon as I got home I went to church and then to eat with some friends. I got home around 8:30 and tried to go to bed and that didn't work out so well, so this is where I ended up. Let's see, I had a lot of fun at the beach but I'm glad to be back in my own bed. I got some really cute clothes and stuff while down there. On the way back, I learned a little something. God can use anything to speak to us and get our attention about something. He has been trying to tell me something for so long but I just haven't been recognizing the signs. Today it finally got through to me. God used a secular song to speak to me. God doesn't just use christian stuff to tell us things, he also uses worldly things. God can use people, music, lyrics, art, scenery, or anything just to get our attention about something. We pray about something and then we complain that God hasn't showed us an answer to this prayer. Well most of the times he is telling us the answer, We just aren't being patient or listening and looking out for this answer. Sometimes, We just have to take a moment out of our busy lives to just stop and listen and look at the things around us. And even if we don't God can show us through things we do in our everyday routines. We can see something on the way to school or work we haven't noticed before or listen to a certain song you listen to all the time and here God saying something through it that you have never thought of or paid attention to before. I just am glad and I think it is absolutely amazing that God goes through so much just to answer are "small" and "big" prayers. But anyways, Just though I'd share that with you guys. I would LOVE to know what you think about my blog so leave some comments. So here's a funny story in The Superb Adventures of Kadileigh Seibert: On the way to the beach there was a fence with horses and cows in it and then there was one of those bulls with the hump on its back and my sister said, "Is that a half bull, half cow? I didn't know they could do that." It was pretty funny though. I had a pretty frightening tale on Friday, but I'm not going to put it on here, so if you want to know just ask me. But that's going to be it for today, so Ta-Da! I'll probably write something on here tomorrow if I learn anything or if anything interestingly superb happens (which it probably won't). Anyways, HAVE AN AMAZINGLY SUPERB WEEK! I HOPE YOU HAVE MANY ADVENTURES OF YOUR OWN THIS WEEK! LOVE .

Springtime and the beauty of God

Hey guys! I'm just sitting here at work so I thought I might blog. Tomorrow I am leaving to go to the beach for a very needed vacation and let me tell you I am incredibly excited! I love to just walk on the beach and just see God's beauty shining right in front of me. Everytime I go it's like I get a renewed awe of God. It just shows me how powerful, yet how gentle he is. You know I just find it so awesome that God gives us small glimpses of his beauty here on Earth everyday. Everywhere we go we see them. The flowers, clouds, sunset, the sweet smell of spring, and the music around us all remind me of just how beautiful he is. I am getting so excited just talking about it. He is an awesome God, isn't he? Well, Tonight I'm going to church and I'm pretty excited about that. Church at LOHBC has been awesome lately. We have been worshipping with everything we have, which I still don't believe is good enough for him, but he accepts it anyways. After that, I have to go home and get packed and then study for a chemistry test! Fun Fun! (sarcasm, isn't it great!) This is completely off subject but when I walked out of school today I wanted to jump up and down, because it actually felt like spring! I love spring! It was warm and it smelled like pollen, and the sky's were this gorgeous shade of blue that only appears in the spring time with those big fluff pillowy clouds, and driving down the road I saw all the flowers blooming! Oh how I love spring! I can't wait until it's here for good with no more cold weather. Anyways, I better get back to work so here's to another blog on TheKadileighSeibertExperience, another superb adventure of Kadileigh Seibert. Thankfully there has been no frightening tales yet but this week is yet to be over. So Hope you guys have an awesome rest of the day/week. I love you all and thanks for taking the time to read this.

Quote of the Day:
"You're inches from my fingertips
I've come as close as I can get
I'm reaching but the rest is up to you...
Cause I don't ever wanna miss
Being here with you like this
I'm trying but it's all that I can do
I'm reaching but the rest is up to you..."
-Jason Reeves "Reaching"

Leave some comments and let me know what you think! :)

First Timer!

Okay so I am a first time blogger, so I already am apologizing if this is boring! But, let's see I decided to make this blog to have something to do and, like most people I know, I kind of want to get off of facebook and transfer to this. :) Well I guess I start getting on here and telling the events of the day. I want to put up a different quote everyday (according to what I feel like). And most likely I'll be uploading videos everyone in a while. I have some awesome videos from this concert I went to last weekend that I'm going to put up so be waiting for that. Today, was somewhat uneventful. I mean I don't know how I'm going to keep this blog about the adventures of Kadileigh Seibert going when I'm having no adventures. So let's hope my life gets a little more busy. I had to work today, that was boring as always. But I guess instead of talking about what happened today I can talk about what God has been doing in my life lately.  I'm sorry if any of you have read the ring of fire because basically this is a repeat. Lately, God has been showing me just who he is. He has shown me how he is the ULTIMATE HEALER, not only the healer to big medical problems (which he can be), but he is the healer to our small problems also such as heartache, loneliness, being unloved, being friendless, etc. God is the glue that pieces our broken hearts back together, the lover of the unlovable, the father to the fatherless, the rest to the weary, the giver to the poor, the friend to the friendless, creator of beauty, comforter to the lonely, and all around he is love. He shows love to every feeling we feel. And most of the time we take for granted that all of those things live in us, if we are saved. God lives in each one of us and is right here with us 24/7. I just find that amazing for some reason. And the other night me and some friends went to a concert at workplay theatre, which is sort of like a bar but not really, but one of the singers (Tyrone Wells) was a christian and he got out and sang a song called "When all is said and done" and you could tell God was in there. So it just kind of taught me that God is everywhere not just in the "good, christian atmospheres". He is ALWAYS with me. But that will be all of "The Superb Adventures of Kadileigh Seibert" Please leave some comments and tell me what you think! :p

I love you all! 

Quote of the Day: Actually most will be song lyrics but here they are 

                     "This will be the day that you take your eyes off the ground, out of the blue, and see                        that someone is looking right back at you. Maybe that someone is me. Maybe it's                          meant to be.  Lovers. Stangers. Sometimes bombs fall quietly. Maybe it's                                          chemistry. Maybe it's hard to see that someone is the right one. Maybe that                                    someone is me. "