Is God leading your dance?

Hello my friends!!! Well here we go with another "me spilling my dramatic life to the readers" blog. Once again I am going to apologize in advance. A second ago I sat down on my bed to talk to God before I read his word and I prayed, "Lord, tonight I have open ears and an open heart. Show me what I need to see. You know how I struggle with this whole waiting for the boyfriend thing, God. Please show me that you have it under control. If this desire I have is not from you, please, crush it and if it is subside it until the right time." Okay anyways, Funny thing, he answered my prayer again. He showed what I needed to be shown. And don't get me wrong when I prayed for him to take that weird mood I was in away, He did, but I will always have the desire for a boyfriend, but sometimes it can be stronger than others. Okay so I open up my bible straight to Proverbs 4 and I began to read it. This is the verse that stood out: "My [daughter], hear me and accept these words. I have taught you the way of wisdom. I have led you in the paths of uprighteousness. (LISTEN TO ME BELOVED, GET THIS THROUGH YOUR HEAD) When you walk your step will not be hampered and IF you run you won't stumble. Take hold of my instructions. Guard it" which were verses 10-13. Okay so I'm the type of person who wishes that when I was born that God would just hand my parents a list to give me that said This is what you're going to do and this is where you are going to live and this is who you are going to marry. I know what's the fun in that, right? But I should praise God for giving us the freedom of choosing what we want to do: Follow him or do things our way. But I just need to come to realization that I'm not just going to be walking and an list with all the info of what I should do falls right out of the sky. I mean, I know we have the Bible, which is God's instruction book for our life but I mean I want to just know exactly  I need to do in list form. Okay I feel like this isn't making any since. Am I the only weird person like that? But God takes us on a journey to find each and every answer for our life and I think we learn stuff on the way. Like it says in those verses though God guides each one of us through our journeys. He makes sure that we do not stumble and if we begin to fall he catches us. So during our storms shouldn't we just trust that he knows what he is doing and why he is doing it and take his hand and dance with him in the rain. Okay so I just got this picture of a little girl taking her daddy's hand and standing on his feet and just letting him lead her through the dance. So why don't we do just that. He is reaching out to everyone so why don't we just take his hand and stand on his feet and let him lead us through the dance? Is it a trust issue? Is it a not knowing who he really is issue? I think that it is something different for each and everyone of us. So I think we should all begin to examine our lives and see who or what is leading you through your dance and if it not God, why? I know that was extremely scatter brained but that's me so I'm sorry!! Please leave comments, questions, opinions, oppositions, etc! I love you all very much! Hope everyone has an amazingly superb weekend! LOVE!

In my time.... Beloved

Okay Okay... So I'm about to lay everything out on the table. So I'm deeply sorry to whoever is reading this. I was just about to go to bed when I layed down at 8:40. Yes, I know it was early, but I was extremely tired. But I just began to pray and I got this random desire to read his word. Well first off let me tell you about my week. I've had one of those weeks. I have these random weeks where I look at my life and I'm like Man, look at you. You are so unorganized and a procrastinator and just plain out messed up. And then I look over to the perfect sitting beside me and they look like they have there life so perfect. You know those people who look like they have it all. They have brains, beauty, and a boyfriend. The three B's every girl wants. And I look at my life, and I'm like okay (I'm not trying to sound prideful in the least bit, so please don't take it that way) Brains, check. Beauty, ummm.... no. And Boyfriend, that's a negative. Anyways I just have these random weeks where I'm like okay well I want a boyfriend for so bad and I have been praying for one for the last two years, I guess I'm just going to be a nun for the rest of my life. Sorry I kind of got off on a tangent there but Tonight when I had that desire to read I prayed Help me get out of this stinkin mood!! I hate it. I seriously prayed that he would speak something to me that I desperately needed to here and guess what? He did just that. I turned to Ecclesiastes and I read the whole "There is a time for everything." passage. Well in chapter 3, verse 11 says He has made everything beautiful in his time. Well, that was one of the verses that stuck out to me. He basically was telling me, "Beloved I know you desire a relationship right now, but it is not the right time. Stop being so hormonal (for the lack of a better word) and just wait. And then I flipped to Psalms 130. And verse 5 says, " I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope." So He was like Beloved in this waiting period seek me more than ever, lean on me when you have your little moods, and most of all learn who I really am. Put your hope in me and my word. Believe I am what the bible says I am and believe I can and will do what my word says I do. And last, Remember that I love you and that you are my creation and created in my image, at that, so how could you be ugly. I made you how I wanted to make you, and I love you for it. So remember when you have those weeks that God loves you no matter what. He doesn't care if you have the "PERFECT" life. I hate to break it to you but no one does, even though it may look like it. Just be the best you can be and give God your everything. He will control the rest. I was talking to Hannah Phillips and I told her when I read Ecclesiastes 3:11 that my opinion is that God is getting that guy he set apart especially for me ready for me. Because he will have to be. It's going to be a while if he's trying to prepare him. I feel sorry for that guy. Anyways well Sorry about the whole life story here but just felt like writing it. Thanks for reading! I love you all! 

Setting God up to look like a Jerk

Hey guys!! What is up? I'm just at work and I'm reading this incredibly amazing book again! Gutsy Faith. Seriously, You need to read it if you haven't. It talks a lot about why God sometimes answers our prayers with a no, if in his word it says, Ask and you will recieve. And we take that out of context so often. When we our not in sync with God's will for us then we sometimes ask for things that will, lets say, "hinder" that will. Sometimes what we ask for something that seems "godly" to us, when in reality it is not in God's plan for us. And God's plans are much bigger and better than our own plans. So when we try to take control and ask for things that our not for us then it is better that he says no. The book states it as this: We set God up to be a jerk. We aren't in the word and we aren't praying and listening to His voice like we should be, but we as humans always want something. So we end up asking for something that "looks to us" like we need it, either just to have if a physical object or sometimes we think that we need it in order to become closer to God, when it is not in his will for us to have it. So God says no because he knows that what we ask for is not best for it. So when we ask, and ask, and ask and do not recieve we say "ummm God, what's going on here? I asked and I am not receiving" and if your like me (and this may only be me) you tend to get mad at God. So do you understand how we set God up to look like a jerk when, really, he is helping us by doing what is best for us. Jeff Edmonson shows this principle in Gutsy Faith by talking about 2 Corinthians 12, when Paul stated that he asked God to remove a "thorn in his flesh" (which we have no idea what it was) 3 times. God responded no each time. Paul could NOT understand why God would leave something in his life that was distracting him so much from his God. I can understand exactly where he was coming from. Think about it, Put yourself in his shoes. Imagine asking over and over for something, and not just asking but passionately asking for something and hearing God's voice saying No, Beloved. And then asking one last time, weeping with your face to the ground, begging for only one thing for God to take away this certain "thorn in your flesh" and then hearing God quietly whisper no. As we keep reading we realize that God wanted Paul to overcome this certain thing. We see in verse 9 that God tells Paul, "My Grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in your weakness." Paul finally realizes that this "thorn" is not going to be removed and say, "For the sake of Christ, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, he is still Strong." God was showing off his power through Paul's weakness. So, God was using something that Paul saw as a distraction to better his kingdom. So In asking for God to remove this "thorn" Paul unintentionally was asking for something that was not in his will, therefore God answered his prayer with a no. Do you understand what I am saying at all. I mean, I feel like I am not getting my point across. But I just have never thought of this before. I have always been one to "Set God up to look like a Jerk." I ask for something without knowing if that is truly what God wants me to have. I really hope you all are getting this. God is so amazing how he brings everything together so well. This all leads back to seeking God. When we seek God He brings everything together. He WILL begin to reveal his will for us when we read his word, Pray, and altogether seek him. And when he does we will know what to ask for, and it will be in accordance to God's will so we will recieve it. Well I really hope I even somewhat got my point across. I would love to know any thoughts, opinions, comments, oppositions, verses, etc. I love you all very much and thanks so much for taking the time to read this. I hope you have many superb adventures this upcoming week. If you do I would absolutely love to know about them. Once again, I truly love yall! 

Quote of the day: (or lyrics: these come from Beautiful King by Danyew)

Beautiful King, 
has anybody seen 
Your glory unfold? 
You walk up to me 
with sparks in Your eyes, 
You brighten my world 

And You'll always be my only One. 
You're the only God I'll ever love 
because... 

Every word that you say 
wields the beauty of angels. 
Every smile is arrayed 
with a joy like wedding bells. 
It's my heart you hold. 
Of your mystery I sing. 
I will stand and behold 
my Beautiful King 

Love of my soul, 
with power untold, 
who is like you? 
Lamb that was slain, 
my God, You reign 
in victory and truth. 

And I'll follow You all my days. 
And I'll give to You every single thing. 
I hand everything over... 

Every word that You say 
wields the beauty of angels. 
Every smile is arrayed 
with a joy like wedding bells. 
It's my heart You hold. 
Of your mystery i sing. 
I will stand and behold 
my Beautiful King. 

And time flies by. 
We're not standing alone. 
Every word that You say, 
Father, let it be known. 
I fall so fast 
without You by my side. 
Let Your beauty be seen 

Let Your glory unfold 
Let Your glory unfold 
Let Your glory unfold 
Let Your glory unfold 

Every word that You say 
wields the beauty of angels. 
'Cause every smile is arrayed 
with a joy like wedding bells. 
It's my heart You hold. 
Of Your mystery i sing. 
I will stand and behold 
my Beautiful King!!! 

'Cause every word that you say 
wields the beauty of angels. 
'Cause every smile is arrayed 
with a joy like wedding bells. 
It's my heart You hold. 
Of your mystery i sing. 
I will stand and behold 
my Beautiful King."

Something New (Tim Brantley)

This is going to be an incredibly short post. I haven't posted in a while but Monday night I went to the Josh Kelley, Ryan Cabrera, Tim Brantley, and Brandon Whyde concert and it was amazing. To see some pictures of us at the concert go to thelwproject.blogspot.com. Oh the soundtrack to my week has been Tim Brantley's Goldtop Heights... Let me just tell you one word: Amazing! Check it out!
Here's some of his lyrics: This is his song "Something New"
Summertime was the end of the line
I'd had enough id done my time
i was looking out for something new yeah
and something looked a lot like you
i had plans to hide my blues away
behind castle walls or roam like a stray
and i knew you but i didn’t know you were the truth oh
and 1 step my knees are getting weak yeah
and 2 steps come on and do it for me oh
and 3 steps i gotta make it to you
but the 4th step never happened you were right on cue
when you asked me what i wanted and i said its you its you
fall and winter kinda knocked me dow
n kinda grew me up back in my old town
and what i needed never let me go
when i pulled so hard i want you to know
that telling you wasnt the easiest thing (big shot city boys)
made you tired of that scene
and i knew you but i didn't know you well
with you uptown girls you know its hard to tell
well a saxaphone was sounding off at three am
playing hard luck climbing lovers limbs
oh and i could almost see the future in your stare
oh the delicate moves of a love affair
oh you made me a believer i could kiss your feet
lay my coat down for you as you cross the street
is there anyone else in the world but you.

Anyways I'll post another one of my extremely long post sometime this weekend hopefully. I've just been extremely busy. But I hope you guys have an amazingly superb weekend. I love you all!

Intimacy with the Father

Hey guys!! How's everyone doing? Well, if you're in High School you should be doing awesome, considering the fact that it is SPRING BREAK! Except, if like Kadileigh, you have to work... YUCK! Anyways, It's been a while since I've blogged, like Luke (thelwproject.blogspot.com, check it out!) mentioned I was kind of having a dry spell. But anyways, I am reading this book called Gutsy Faith. It is really good! You should all read it. But in this book it talks about the intimacy between Jesus and God and what their relationship was like. When I came into work this morning I was reading it and it was talking about the story when Jesus feeds the crowd. (Matthew 14:13-23) Before I get to far off on that let me tell you about my thoughts in the past week or so. I have been thinking about our intimacy with God. I have been examining my relationship with him to see what it really looked like. As I have been seeking God, he has been revealing to me the importance of seeking him. And first of all one of the most important things about that is we can see who he really is, his real characteristics, and fall more and more deeply in love with him each day. So, we were all created in his image, right? So, we also need to seek him to find out exactly who we are, or who we are supposed to be. We all know we are supposed to be christ-like, but how can we do that if we don't know what Christ is really like? So when we seek him, we will find him, he will reveal himself to you, and then we will begin to see who we are really supposed to be? Okay, anyways, back to the feeding the crowd thing. When Jesus came to the shore, there was thousands of people standing, waiting for their last hope, Jesus, to come down and just touch them. People who had diseases, people who were possessed, prostitutes, robbers, lawyers, doctors, anyone who needed healing, whether physical or mental, were gathered there just to be touched or looked upon by a man they had never met, just heard of, that could supposedly heal them, their last hope. Jesus got off the boat and scripture says that "He saw a great crowd, and he had compassion on them and healed their sick" Jesus was probably tired and hungry, he had been at sea all day with the disciples, but instead of just walking past them to go eat or sleep, he had compassion on every single one of them and healed every single one of them. The author in the book Gutsy Faith tells you to imagine it, Jesus walking around saying a prayer for every person who needed healing and God granting it. When Jesus was done the disciples came to him and said send the crowds away, the day is over and we are starving. Let's go eat and Jesus said all of these people are hungry too, feed them. The disciple said we only have five loaves of bread and two fish, there is no way this can feed over five thousand people. Jesus told them to pass it out and said a prayer to God and blessed it. Okay i'm saying all that to get to this: Jesus had such an intimacy with God that he knew EXACTLY what he should do, and when and where he should do it. He knew what he needed to ask God for and when to ask for it. You know when you and your friend have been friends for an extremely long time and yall have become extremely close, You begin to know what the your friend is thinking, you can look at them and know exactly what is going through their mind, well that's how Jesus and God were. Jesus spent so much time with God that he knew what he was thinking. He became so intimately connected with God that he knew what he was thinking every minute so he did everything God asked him to do because he knew why God wanted that. So, this is my question: How intimate are you with God? I know that I am not as intimate as I should be at all, but I deeply desire the intimacy of the relationship the father and the son had. Anyways, that's whats been on my mind lately. Any thoughts, opinions, verses, oppositions, comments, leave them. I love reading you guys' thoughts. I hope you all have many adventures to tell me about this week!!! I love you all! HAPPY SPRING BREAK!

Giving Everything

Hey guys! What's up? Well I've had a pretty awesome week seeking God. He is really starting to reveal to me who he really is and it is pretty amazing! I can't wait to dig even deeper! Well I have two different things on my mind and the first one is very questionable. This is merely an opinion, and it is not scripturally based. It is not a truth. The only reason I put this on here is so I can learn more about it from you guys and so I could learn about some scripture dealing with this. For the past couple of days I've seen the phrase "God will not give you something you cannot handle." Or something to that extent. Well I've just been thinking about it and I think I disagree with that. I think God brings us to things that we can't handle so we get to our breaking point, and so we HAVE to lean on him and depend him. I think it is through things we cannot handle that God breaks down our pride and we realize that we can't do it by ourselves so we run to him. I would love to know everyone's opinion on this and I would love to know about some scripture involving this, please. Let me know if you have some. Okay second thing is giving God EVERYTHING, giving him every area of our life. I mean letting him see the good, the bad, and the ugly. I was just thinking about this today. I think when we begin to seek him and see who he really is we will be able to give up things. As we get to know him we will let go of areas we have been holding onto. I like to think about it like this: Before you let someone into your life, you have to get to know them and see what they are really like. Before you tell your friends your deepest darkest secrets there has to be trust there. And most of the time we don't trust someone we don't know with our most precious things. So when we don't know who God really is and when we aren't "friends" with him then it is going to be hard to give up our most precious item: Our life.  I don't know if that makes sense to anyone but it does to me. As I have been seeking God this week, he has really been softening me. He has begun to break down many walls in my life. He has shown me things I have been doing that I shouldn't be doing. He has really begun to reveal himself, though. And let me tell you HE IS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING! So yall I'm serious, If you don't know exactly who God is begin to seek him, and you WILL find him. So Hannah I hope you're happy it was pretty short today. Short. Simple. To the point, Just for you! I hope you guys have an awesome week seeking God. I love you all very much! And I hope you have many awesomely superb adventures this week. LOVE.