I Haven't Seen the Stars Lately

I haven't seen the stars lately. Not because they aren't there, but because I haven't taken the time to look. My life just seems to be moving faster and faster, when I really would love for it just to slow down. I was thinking last night about how much I love the stars.. I mean I absolutely love them. They're my favorite, yet I haven't taken the time to look at them. I haven't even paid attention to something I hold so dear just because I've been busy. That sounds like a horrible excuse to me. Well that just about describes my life lately. I haven't been paying attention to the things I love. And I'm just going to be honest, I haven't spent much time with my God lately. I used to LOVE to have my nightly talks with him, and to learn more and more about him everyday. I used to feel smitten when I would learn something new and exciting about Him that I didn't know. My date with God used to be my favorite part of the day. First, School started... and that led to homework. And then I started working more, and then I started going to devotions of some sort on almost every week night.. And when I got home I would just do my homework and go to bed. I thought that the devotions would make up for my personal time with God, and it didn't. Just like looking at a picture of the stars doesn't fulfill my desire to look at the stars. It's so different. I have discovered I need my one on one time. I have started having my dates with God again and let me tell you, There's nothing like it. Nothing can take the place of that time for me. I missed it so much. I also missed this, a lot, a whole lot. I miss blogging. I just haven't had time, or at least I tell myself that to make me feel better. Well, I'm just glad I can do this now, and get back into it. But I am starting this up again. I shall soon have some guest bloggers, and let me tell you they're good, very awesome. Some amazing friends of mine. Oh, and I wrote a guest blog for Jake Branham's The Journey Blog. Check it out, TheJourneyBlogs.blogspot.com. But anyways all this to say, Maybe I'm back into the swing of things. I hope so. Well leave some comments! :) Thanks for reading!! I love you guys.

LiveWithPassion :)

It's time for an awakening.

Hey guys! What's up? It's been a really really long time since I've done this! Believe me, I've really missed it. Well tomorrow is the first day of school, and honestly I'm absolutely dreading it but I know it'll be okay! This year, I'm ready to be the difference at county high, and I know I can do it. Well, not alone, but God and me. I used to think that God only used adults, so I would tell myself that I would make a change when I got older. Well now I know that that isn't true. And I have a thirst to be the change now. I know God can and will use me to do huge things at County High. I'm so ready this year to see an awakening at County High, for people to see God for who he really is. I'm ready for all the Christians to come together and be the change. I'm ready for us to fulfill our destiny that God has set out for us. I'm ready to see all the Christians to really act like Christians are supposed to act. To quit being hypocritical, gossipy, judgmental, etc. and to start showing people the love, hope, and peace Yahweh has given us. I'm so ready to see a huge change this year! I have committed to change myself this year. I have committed to love unconditionally. I have committed to quit being scared, scared of what people think, scared of the unknown, scared of letdowns. Why should I be afraid when I have the all powerful God on my side? I have decided to grasp the moment, and to live for now. Not live for yesterday. "I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way He Loves Us!" I think it's time to put our worship in motion and to live for god and god alone. I am committing to really being passionate about it this year. I'm ready to really live out my faith and show people my real identity, the living God. I seriously think God is going to show up at TCHS this year, if we let him. I want me and the other Christians to be salt and make people who see us thirsty for more of the living God. I want us to shine his light and let everyone see him for who he really is! I pray that God will use me and all the other christians in HUGE ways this year. I am so ready to seriously be the difference. I want people to look at me and God's other disciple and know that there is something different about us. And that difference is the hope God has given us. I am so ready to see a huge change this year. And I believe with God's help we can do it. I am ready to see Christians put their worship into motion and live it through their everyday lives. I think we can do it!!!! Are you with me?

How He Loves

Okay so just read these lyrics! My friend Luke showed me this awesome song. It's called How He Loves by John Mark Mcmillan

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

Yeah, He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves.

We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
So Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way…

He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves.

Well, I thought about You the day Stephen died,
And You met me between my breaking.
I know that I still love You, God, despite the agony.
...They want to tell me You're cruel,
But if Stephen could sing, he'd say it's not true, cause...

Cause He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us.
Whoa! how He loves us.
Whoa! how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves.

AMAZING! I just wanted you all to be blessed by these lyrics like I have! I'll blog more later. LOVE.

Do Not Be Afraid

What's up guys! Once again, I haven't wrote in a while. I just can't keep up with this thing. Let's see as of right now, I've been doing pretty good. I got to spend the whole day with my niece yesterday, which was great! But I just read my friend Luke's blog. It talks about how we should live in the moment, not the fear of the future or the memories of yesterday. SO TRUE. This might just be me but a lot of the time I feel like I'm just standing still in one spot watching everyone else running past me, trying my hardest to figure out where I am. I know that's extremely confusing but that's the best way to put it into words. I am ready to jump in the moment and live for what God put me in that specific moment for. Just wanted to say that. I really wanted to tell you guys about what God has been showing me lately. Well you know how in my last blog I told you how scared I was and I really didn't even know why. Well here's something weird, VBS started the day after I wrote that, and the theme: Don't be afraid. Well if that wasn't a God thing I don't know what was. The bible stories each night were about Moses. The first night was when God spoke to him through the burning bush and how scared he was. God told him that he needed to go rescue his people from the Pharaoh and lead them to the promise land. He told God that he was scared and that he didn't think he was the man for the job. Well that's exactly how I feel. Like I just think, Well God don't you think this is a pretty big thing, don't you need someone better than me, like a better, more committed person, someone who doesn't act like me. I just think, seriously God? that's a pretty important thing... and you're depending on me? Woah. I think that's what scares me. I think I am what scares me. It's not the task or God, but it's me. I know that I've got a whole lot of changing in store. And I know that God is preparing me for my task. That's what the waiting period is for, preparation and seeking. In order to do what God has told me to do, I must seek. Above all things, I must seek him and that is my preparation. But it scares me that I'm me. That this task is in my hands. That probably makes no sense to anyone else but that's the only way to explain it. But God kept telling me at VBS. Don't be afraid, I am ALWAYS with you. You aren't doing this alone. You are doing it with me. Do Not Be Afraid, I do what I say I do and I am who I say I am. TRUST ME on this one. So that's what I am going to do. I am going to trust. Please continue to pray for me. Thanks guys! Leave some comments.

Waiting

Okay, So let me just start out with this: These lyrics describe what I've been feeling lately.
hungry I come to You
for I know You satisfy
I am empty
but I know Your love does not run dry
and I wait
and I wait
so I wait for You
so I wait for You

chorus
I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for

broken I run to You
for Your arms are open wide
I am weary but I know Your touch restores my life
so I'll wait for You
so I'll wait for You

I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for
Oh, I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for

and I wait for you
and I wait for you
and I wait for you
and I wait

I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for
Oh, I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for

hungry I come to you,
for I know You satisfy

I'm about to really open up to yall. These last couple of weeks have scared me to death. I've been praying for God to begin to reveal his will to me, to begin to show me what I need to do. Well let's just say he's really answered this prayer. Over the last couple of weeks, He's been showing me bits and pieces of it, and, honestly it scares me to death. It just flat out scares me. Before this, I was scared because I had no idea what the future held for me. And now I'm scared and I know where I'm going and what I am supposed to be doing. I don't know where I stand anymore. I know this isn't making sense to anyone but I just need to let it out. Part of it, I think, is the waiting. The waiting scares me. I don't know what to do when I wait. I know I worship him and I know I love. But, I think, my problem is that I do NOT understand that waiting is a part of it. It's part of everything and it's definitely part of his will for me. The way I live my life and the way everything in my life is makes me feel like I always must be doing something. And not just something, but something big. But sometimes the waiting period is big. This period can be used to prepare us for the big thing we are waiting for. I just need to realize that. But it seriously scares me that I'm going to have to wait, and not just for a short period, but for a while. It scares me that I know what I need to do, and that I have to wait to do it. It really does scare me. I am just going to have to be preparing myself for these things he has revealed to me. I am going to have to really dig deep and get to know him from every angle. I am going to have to examine EVERY aspect of my life and make Christ the center of everything. I am going to have to set my priorities in the right order for the next couple of years while I am waiting. I am going to just have to be patient and persevere while I'm waiting. Whatever it takes, I am going to reveal this will. And as hard as it gets. I am going to wait and wait until I know the time comes for what needs to be done. Please pray for me, Pray for God to give me patience and the strength to persevere. Also just pray for me because I am in the middle of a spiritual battle because of this. God is telling me to go one way and the devil is trying with all his might to talk me out of it. Thanks so much guys! I love you all so much. I would absolutely love some comments, verses, opinions, thoughts, encouragement, anything. I just love to hear from yall. LOVE.